11 days out and I have been struggling with a lot of things. first being getting all my fluids in. Not being hungry i don't think to drink or "eat" anymore. I am lucky if im getting in 32 oz of food or drinks a day. Today I am making the conscious effort to drink more. which leads to my second struggle. Protein. I got one of each flavor of the shakes i like. And other various samples from here or there. EVERYthing makes me sick. Except today. I made a Fuzzy navel Syntrax nectar with water and let it sit overnight to let the foam settle and it went down ok. It seems to be the milk based ones. Even the lactose free versions of RTD shakes i had.
Yesterday i was supposed to start puree. But i cant seem to want to start. I'm scared my pouch will hate it. Its very finicky. One day it likes something and the very next day that same thing will make me sick. Same goes for hot and cold things. I did puree my soup instead of straining it so that's a start, right?
The pain is coming and going. Mostly on days when I do a lot around the house or walks longer than the 4 blocks to walk the dog.
Fuck!! This is so hard. And the first person that says I took the easy way out is going to get a fist to the mouth.
Now, on to the good news. I have lost 33 lbs since I got my first weigh in at the dr's Office earlier this year. My clothes are fitting better and a lot looser. Im hoping to hit 200 by christmas! I can do it.
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