Alright! so I have done my first 2 out of 3 nutrition classes, psych appt, blood work. Went to Gyno about the hot flashes and not sleeping and after all this time she tells me I have PCOS. YAY. So I am in menopause. I have been for about 4 years now. Got on some good HRT and she gave me synthroid for low thyroid numbers. after 2 weeks I feel amazing, sleeping good not waking up every 30-45 min soaking in sweat.
So, I feel excited and want to push my surgery date up. I feel like I'm ready now, but I'm not. I have set small goals for myself at my last nut class. I have to weeks to get them all. Not completely there yet but... baby steps! Today is day 2 of swapping out half or more diet coke with diet tea. The cravings are still there and its killing me. Diet coke is my drug of choice. That is going to be the hardest thing to kick.

I made my first video to upload to YouTube once I get over being embarrassed about how I look right now.

I took all my measurements as of today and put them in a spread sheet so I can keep track of them monthly.
I will prolly still weigh  myself weekly but My goal is to track inches lost as well monthly.

I got my unjury samples in the mail last week and I am anxious to try them in things. I opted for only the unflavored and chicken. I am not a sweets kind of person. So if i can mix either of them in my cottage cheese or pureed veggies or meats or soups I will be OK.

My BF of 5.5 years, Tim, is very supportive of this whole thing. He's looking forward to taking the first 2 weeks off with me to "help me". Thats nerd speak for " catch up on all my games I haven't had time for". I'm ok with that. At least he will be home if I need him.

There are also 3 minor goal outfits in my closet currently. These are things I have kept because I liked them and they were taking up closet space.  But, they are currently too small. My reasoning is each small step is a pant size  and a small goal to get through and keep pushing me the rest of the way. I know I will never be my  pre-marriage/kids size again. I don't care. Something better than I am right now. I feel like I'm not pretty enough to deserve the man that loves me. I feel like I'm always being judged at work or out places. I want to be that hot nerdy chick that every guy wants. And while I'm not referring to the fake nerds on TV. I want to be comfy in my skin and in public. I want to fly my nerd flag on my chest in various t shirts I cannot wear because Of my size.

So, there  you have it. And while I'm at it, have my measurements as of today: