3 months to go

Today I ordered some vitamin samples and more protein samples. I don't want to get too much of any one thing I may not like after. There's not much else new yet. Just have to wait to schedule my appts and surgery.

Just checking in.

I'm ready!

This is my stash so far. The box on the floor has vitamin and protein samples. Still pretty excited at this point. I started a weekly countdown on my work calendar. 16 weeks to go! I have made an outline of how my YouTube videos are going to go. And daily blog entries while I'm off from work.

Somehow I'm the last few weeks, I have decided I want to start the couch to 5k program. I have never run and even hated it in high school. But I'm willing to try because I need to prove to myself I can stop being lazy and do something good for me. I found a fun version of the ct5k called Zombies run! Narrates in between your tracks for a story. I'm excited to try this program and will review it once I have started it.

I think Tim is getting tired of me talking about my surgery too. But we'll cross that bridge another time. Anyways, laters lovies.

17 weeks to go.

So.. 17 weeks to go until surgery. I'm getting excited. I will start recording videos of reviews of samples I have around now.. I have amassed quite a large stash. I'm only going to review things I have a before and after amount of. 

Speaking of recording, Also tried to see how YouTube likes my webcam built into my laptop.. it doesn't. 
lots off video lag. so .. my HTC ONE  wins again. I did a sample video for both and there was ZERO lag with the phone. 

I'm getting addicted to pinterest.. There should be a warning label on their website sign up page. pinning all kinds of info and recipes.. 

And I have lost 14lbs from Jan at my first appt to now. I have been trying to eat less and kicked my diet coke and now the tea and i'm solely on water. Water reduces the foods I eat by half because a lot of things don't taste right to me if i'm drinking water with them. Or they make my tummy hurt.. Like popcorn... my tummy hates mixing popcorn and water. so water wins! 

so lovies, time for bed. early morning. <3

Approved!

Well, I got the call. My insurance approved me!. Now I justt have to cal back in August to make my pre-op appt with the surgeon for Sept so that he can set a date in Oct. I was really excited about everything up until this weekend  when I actually thought about the morning of the surgery. going to the hospital and then needles and then being put under and waking up in recovery. Its kinda scary now. I have also completely kicked the Diet Coke! Tea was my gateway for about a month and now i have switched to completely water. I dont like flavored waters so plain is ok by me.

I have a ton of stuff stashed away for after surgery. From Protein powder samples to RTD shakes to liquid gummy and chewable vitamins to little cute lunch boxes for protioning out my food. I have also been trying some really good protein shake recipes.


Heres one:

1) vanilla protein powder serving and  liquid per directions( i used skim milk for more protein)
2)fat free lemon yogurt ( regular or greek)
3) handful of ice
4)teaspoon(or less if its too much) lemon extract

mix and let sit until foam settles ( it tastes really gross)

I make mine at night and drink next morning...

It tastes like lemon cake batter.

Enjoy!

<3

Posts are slow going.. not a lot happening right now. I have everything i need done. I gave them the date I want to have it done.. Now to just wait until Oct. I wish I could do it now but its not a good time. No Tim to be around to help me and take out the dog.

I have started planning for my Pax '14 cosplay. I'm going to order my wings next weekend.

Theres so much more I want to get for after my surgery. More transition clothes, stock up on soft foods and protein powders and RTD shakes.

well.. that's it for now... <3

Alright! so I have done my first 2 out of 3 nutrition classes, psych appt, blood work. Went to Gyno about the hot flashes and not sleeping and after all this time she tells me I have PCOS. YAY. So I am in menopause. I have been for about 4 years now. Got on some good HRT and she gave me synthroid for low thyroid numbers. after 2 weeks I feel amazing, sleeping good not waking up every 30-45 min soaking in sweat.
So, I feel excited and want to push my surgery date up. I feel like I'm ready now, but I'm not. I have set small goals for myself at my last nut class. I have to weeks to get them all. Not completely there yet but... baby steps! Today is day 2 of swapping out half or more diet coke with diet tea. The cravings are still there and its killing me. Diet coke is my drug of choice. That is going to be the hardest thing to kick.

I made my first video to upload to YouTube once I get over being embarrassed about how I look right now.

I took all my measurements as of today and put them in a spread sheet so I can keep track of them monthly.
I will prolly still weigh  myself weekly but My goal is to track inches lost as well monthly.

I got my unjury samples in the mail last week and I am anxious to try them in things. I opted for only the unflavored and chicken. I am not a sweets kind of person. So if i can mix either of them in my cottage cheese or pureed veggies or meats or soups I will be OK.

My BF of 5.5 years, Tim, is very supportive of this whole thing. He's looking forward to taking the first 2 weeks off with me to "help me". Thats nerd speak for " catch up on all my games I haven't had time for". I'm ok with that. At least he will be home if I need him.

There are also 3 minor goal outfits in my closet currently. These are things I have kept because I liked them and they were taking up closet space.  But, they are currently too small. My reasoning is each small step is a pant size  and a small goal to get through and keep pushing me the rest of the way. I know I will never be my  pre-marriage/kids size again. I don't care. Something better than I am right now. I feel like I'm not pretty enough to deserve the man that loves me. I feel like I'm always being judged at work or out places. I want to be that hot nerdy chick that every guy wants. And while I'm not referring to the fake nerds on TV. I want to be comfy in my skin and in public. I want to fly my nerd flag on my chest in various t shirts I cannot wear because Of my size.

So, there  you have it. And while I'm at it, have my measurements as of today:

Reading and reading

It seems all I have been doing is reading other people's blogs about their WLS. Am I getting too obsessed? maybe.. It seems so far away and then when i think that its sooo far away i feel defeated like its never gonna happen. What if my insurance says no? what if my co pay is too high and i cant afford it? what if something goes horribly wrong? I'm scared now... and i keep thinking to myself... its all gonna be better when im skinny again.. I will be able to go out and tie shoes and play with my dog.. i wont be embarrassed to be with my BF. I just don't know.